I roughly read through an analysis of the book of Job. Truly, I do sympathized and able to relate my circumstances like Job's. I do admit that my sins are much different than of Job's to which I mean in his entire lifetime. In personal regards, from what I've read, Job really is a good and righteous man, the one who fears God.
However, I have to be honest to myself, to my own feelings. I doubt I am behaving properly towards to the people around me. My temper is unusually unreasonable, quick to judge, and lose control. Daddy told me that in such cases, I might have mental depressions.
I am depraved from the hurting in the past; still unable to let it go or forget the feelings that were once nailed to my hearts. Many told me to forgive and to let go what's done.
I really tried, but circumstances are not that simple just like the advises given to me. The pain might be in the past, but the jealousy towards my peers is brought forth to my eyes. Friends that I have connected with, disconnected over with someone much good looking and better performing friend.
It hurt the most was:
I was trying to start a conversation, by doing goofy handshake.
But my friend, are you trying to learn the American way to make people talk?
Was I, a friend or
someone who acts?
Confidential.
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